Menial Thoughts

I wonder,
I ponder,
I sunder,
and fall under.

I try,
Wont cry,
See sky,
and let out a sigh.

It's as though one is uselessly useful,
Obnoxiously serious,
creatively destructive,
and smartly dumb.

Menial thoughts of desperation,
Until I find joy
or annihilation,
Wilted joys of filtration,
Until I find freedom
or finalization.